Sherilynnn

3rd week.

2011-08-08T15:13:00.000+08:00

its the 3rd week you have left. times are hard. i see ur profile every now and then. i wonder to myself what have you been doing are you happy.. i hate you for being such a flirt. but truth is imy.. imy alot. i spent most of my time with my friends going out with them because i have to take my mind of you. flashbacks and memories just keep haunting me.. if i knew this will happen for the second time i wouldnt have agreed to be back with you.. why , why are you such a person. we could have lasted.. its all because of you and your changed personality. why must you change so much just so people will like you. why are you being someone you are not.. am i really a bad girl. am i really not worth. am i really that bad..
love life. i dont have any faith in it anymore. idk which guy can be compared to you. i dont care about any other guys . idk why. its like, you are so much more important to me. even now that you have left. there's this part inside me that misses you terribly. in a blink of an eye its already the 3rd week you have left. exactly 3 weeks... 21days... soon it'll be months then years. will i ever see you again.. idk. as much as i hate what you are doing.. why dont you ever reply my msg if you say we are friends. why must you always lie to me. why..

i cant do anything now but to just wish you all the best. stay happy.

25july.

2011-07-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

i dont know what kind of day is today. i guess. its kind of manageable. the day passed really fast. but till i was alone in the bus, feelings came back haunting me. thinking. why , why does shaun have to flirt. why is he such a guy. i feel really cheated. im upset. im disappointed. all can say now is if only.. but its all to no use. if only is just a thought now. just got to let it go slowly no matter how hard it is. least even though he is flirting, he is happy. if he is happy that way then i cant say anthing. guess i will just have to treat it as fate. during the times with him, we really had the extremes. maybe its just my fault. crying always kind of works. after i cry i will be okay. but it does not help in the long run at all.. somehow i will still have to forget. its easy said then done. i thought i am able to get through it. but actually i cant. just got to stay strong, and try my best.

quite tired today. but luckily time pass quite fast today. its time. time i start doing work and focus. promos is coming. i dont want to retain. i just have no more confidence and faith in myself anymore. like, i give up so easily, or dont even try. whats coming of me. why am i so weak now. i wanna be strong all over again. i wish i can have him by my side. staying faithful and truthful. but guess he cant. he's a flirt. i've given my best. even though it hurts, i dont deserve the treatment from him.

need to let it go.. slowly.. and carry on with life. im thankful, for my friends. for being there for me. always. i know i can do it. i will let go for them. be happy for them. :)

pe was quite okay though i feel the strain in my legs after sprinting. i am so weak now, :/ where did the strong me go to. time to buck up. i dont want to waste my mum's money. life's tough but they dont show it to us.. sometimes i do feel guilty for not talking to them properly.

need to do some work and sleep soon.

TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY! <3

a week.

2011-07-24T02:04:00.000+08:00

about a week since you left. you decided you want to leave. to leave me for good. why, why are you doing this to me. i thought we could last. we could last forever, till the day we die. we talked, we had plans, but now, its all gone.

i wished you hadnt done this. i wish you wouldnt change so much.

why.. why is it that you are now in a jc you are acting this way. are are you naturally like that. we've been tgt for 21 months. its not long but its not that short either. every since you came into my life. you made it so great. i feel so loved. but slowly as time goes by, you stop showing.. why, why is this so.. i know i took you for granted the other time.. but i've changed and i realise things. so why now you are acting this way. i just wish we wouldnt have quarreled so much.

you left me once.. when jc started for charlene.. and you came back.. saying you love me. is that really so. you had a tough time getting me back. but i accepted you in the end. knowing ou are repentful. but you are not.. this is happening the 2nd time.

but this time you tell me the reason why you are acting this way is because you cant cope. is it really true.. or is it some other reason.. if not why, why is there not a text from you. im not dumb my dear boy.. i know alot of things. but i choose not to say it. why take me for granted and just want me to understand everything. i hate myself, for being so nice to you. cause you are just getting all over me. you get sky high while i go to the rock bottom. why cant you treasure me. i dont think im that bad of a girl..

do you even love me from the start. when we were tgt or were you just playing with my feelings. just wanting me for a name, someone who is just a temporary substitute to your life... we went true so much, but you just gave us up like that. why.

why do you have to flirt. how many girls have you been flirting with. you claim you dont flirt. im not a small girl. i have eyes to see, ears to hear. i dont know what else to say to you anymore. i feel so hurt, i dont want to let us go.. but seems like i have no choice. i tried talking to you but you just wont listen, you want everything to go ur way. you put words in such a way that its ur fault but you are blaming me for it. im tired, tired of you and tired of us. but i chose to hang in there, you dont play ur part at all. i tolerate all your nonsense and give in to you but you dont appreciate.

you give ur number to countless girls, you want girls in ur sch, have leadership positions,etc. when will you wake up.. why are you so immature. thinking about it, i regret.. accepting you back. because im here going through all the pain again. it sucks. you make me suffer.. while you enjoy life and be happy.. dont i mean anything to you? you still say as though you feel the pain. stop it. stop lying... why do i believe you so much and just take it all on myself. you are so unreasonable.. who gets close to girls and touches them when you have a gf. so what if im not ur wife. i have the right to ask where are you. all ur fucking excuses just makes my blood boil when i think about them.im so stupid. i really am. i hate you. hate you for all that you have done. dont come back. asking for me. and giving excuses like wanting to jump down the building. im not stupid. i wont fall for ur tricks anymore. just wish to forget you totally and carry on with life. i believe in karma... there will be retribution.

I HATE YOU SHAUN NG YAN JIE.

2010-07-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmm. dead blog... should just write smth.

life's have been hard on me. with e person that sucks like shit! SERIOUSLY!
a person like her should exist.
A WOLF IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING!!!
making me go crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! its such a long story. its not the first time this had happen.
they maybe're not my true friends afterall. its like, isnt a friend suppose to be thr for you? and not try to say stuff and make ppl dislike you? she's like a person whom ppl think that she's nice and all.. BUT SHE'S NOT! they should see properly luhh. its like they're blinded wif her words.
this thing had made me utterly sad.. =( sigh. dunno why i feel so sad. cried.. couldn't take it. it's like i dont know.. but i do know that FRIENDSHIP MEANS ALOT TO ME. but of course you mean more to me.

i dont understand why she's like that. jealous uh. LOLS. such a bitch and a slut. she make my day so bad.
she should just go and die!!!
i cannot stand her. thr's a lot of reasons why.
now, ppl in the clique also treat me like that. WTF?! im not someone whom you can treat as you feel like. wanna treat me this way, FINE. cause at the end of the day, its not me who's losing out. i dun lose anything.
BUT IM ANGRY WIF HER. SUPER ANGRY. I dont know how to put my anger into words. trying to not care about ppl her them but its so hard! make me cry. URGHHH.
dont wanna talk about her anymore. waste my time only. shall talk abt the day i had today.

recieved amth test on integration. 16/20 quite happy although i could've gotten 18.
Dr Mel Gill came to talk to us. and he's amazing. seriously. i like him =)) as in the way he tells us things. engages me =)
hmm. you've tuition today.. which means cant text. =(( bad thing. but good thing is you're studying. sighh it just reminds me of her... its like, sigh =( you're two timing of smth... i dont like the feeling of it when girls relate to you, you two seem so close... fb... wad should i say? im speechless... its like liking here and thr.. i just feel so uncomfortable... very uncomfortable.. thats why i keep quiet.. dont you know that... when im quite when talking to you means i feel uncomfortable and feel like crying? =((

shall just stop here and type again soon

I WANNA DO WELL FOR MY O'S!

WEDDING! =D

2009-10-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

shall talk about the wedding hat i attended on friday after exam. it was kinda cool =) woke up at about 5 plus to study on that day. and slept at 12 plus cause making the card. was dead tired when i reached god-ma's place. i went to god-ma's place at about 1 plus cause had to wait for sissy to finish school. there were many people there. hahs. the brides' sisters and grooms' brothers. wondered how did they come into the house. heard that they had to eat chili padi and eat disgusting stuff. wished i could be there. but nehmind. after when the people left, i went to bathe and get ready for the dinner. went to saloon to do my hair. gosh. $39 for me! so expensive.(will upload the photos next time). when we reached the hotel, it was really dam awesome. a suite! =DD i like the bedroom and the bathroom. cool cool. =D hahah. was walking around in heels that day. my feet so painful! but i was tall! =) hahah. they've been dating for 13 years and they called it a marathon whereby it come to a wonderful ending. kinda cool. awesome. ^^ was busy the whole day. reached back here at about 12 plus 1. dan bathed and sleep =X had a long day.

slept over at god-ma's place till saturday. dan went out in the afternoon. =D was suppose to go home but decided that sunday(which is today) night dan go home =] will be going out later today. was suppose to go for some amazing race thing but i forgot to hand up the form. =X its a combine with chua chu kang secondary. hahs.

im dead beat but i cant sleep D=

one more day!

2009-10-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

woohoo ^^ one more day to go before exam end!! dan wedding!! i love weddings xDD hahs. wonder how its gonna be like. although paper finishes at 9, i can go early cuz sister having sch! =( so will go straight once sissy finishes sch. which is at about 1. -.- went out for lunch today. spent $250. expensive expensive. sighh. i wanna buy shoe. i wanna go SHOPPING!! thr's smth i wish for. smth that i want my mum to do.

today's chem was average. im not sure if i did the paper correctly. i mean the equation part. so hard to calculate!
im gonna bring camera tmr!! ^^ hopefully can take alot alot of pictures.

2 more days!

2009-10-14T12:54:00.000+08:00

two more days to end of exams! cant wait! hehe. ^^ amaths ytd was so so so so difficult. i cant do the paper! =( amaths is acutally one of my strongest subject but it turn out to be... sigh. out of the 2h 30 min, i did barely half the paper. i mean.. i skipped and stuff. ALL SO DIFFICULT CAN! wad kind of paper is this!! GRR!! make me cry!! =(((((( while doing halfway, wanted to give up. looked around and saw everybody writing so i thought it was just me that found the paper so difficult. guess my amaths gonna fail badly le. ._. wasnt feeling well while doing the paper. dan after that was bio. it was okay though i didnt know how to do some parts. THANK YOU CLAUDIA YEO! lemme beat you =XX sorry ah. was a bit crazy. dan nervous and also stressed cuz i have not studied finish bio and sad due to amaths. THANK YOU CLAUDIA SIM. =)) you're cheerful smile will brightens ppl's day. tmr's chemistry! i better study hard and pass cuz combine. and friday's the wedding!! cant wait xD maybe i should wear black stockings ^.^

2009-10-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

is dead tired. having to sleep at 10plus11 and waking up at 3plus 4 to study! gosh. this shows that i do last minute studying =X not encouraged cause you'll panic and forget everything. i panic in school when people ask me sudden questions dan i cannot rmb dan panic dan forget everything. hm. one more week left! cant wait for it to end but after exams we're still having biology(SPA). o level practical!

2009-10-07T18:25:00.001+08:00

found the dress. another dress =( but kinda nice =) thinking whether to wear sneakers or shoes to go according to the theme. urgh! exams!! T.T stress! need to study... tmr's ss hope i have the confidence to do the paper. it'll be in the hall.. so intense! must think of a btr way to study!

2009-10-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

is happy =)) hahs. shall study and reply alison's letter later.
i need to get a dress or smth soon. dunno if i should wear that or buy another. its killing me. =0

=XX

2009-10-02T14:24:00.000+08:00

didnt blog for quite long. shall blog now. hehs. had exams the last two days.. did okay for the compo but im scared for the compre. had chinese today. FREAKING DIFFICULT. gosh. so chim can. school should give us more time.

lena: how you know my blog? i didnt give to anyone know. hahs but i wished you happy bday on my blog okay! ^^

petrina and alison: you two ah say see me run away from ball! tskk! the ball dam huge can. ad i dun like the grass. -__- so GROSS! so wet and disgusting can! and not funny hor.. dun laugh at me! and alison, will give you ur letter soon. hehs.

lets talk abt yesterday. yesterday was childrens day and we had exam! =l but i went out after school XD bought things. im a happy kid. bought bag, pencil case and some thing that i dunnno how to say. spent 40+21+70=131. not inclusive of food. hahs. some person got pranked ytd.. sigh.. i dunno wad to say but yeah i still think its not a prank. or maybe it is. you just be happy can le.

study hard! ^^

must start studying!!

2009-09-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

i must really start studying le. i mean real studying but i've got no motivation. =( 4more days. gosh. its very fast. school said that sec3 got no post exam activities. only got studying!! after exam also study sehh. so mean. urghh sherilyn must wake up! and study! i tell people to study than i never study. care for people more than myself. guess the only time i study is when i've got work to do. my blog entry's gonna be short. duno wad to write. =X will be using com less often le.

note to alison!
*eeeeeeeeediot! say i run away from ball. GRR! bite you! you got see me meh? how come i nvr see you de? i dun wan get hit by the ball so i WALK away. hehs.*

claudia yeo jia min! i miss you loads sehh.

2009-09-25T14:13:00.000+08:00

im getting lazier to blog. heheh. exam's are coming must study. but i hardly finish studying.. =( i must not fail my english. must do well. heh. had half day today. school end at 11. was suppose to stay back but tcher use HHP/PC period instead. my tcher didnt even teach finish the syallbus and its tested for exams.. so crappy.
just now.. winner jumped onto the sofa and curl himself into a comfortable position and SLEEP! so adorable. XDD but when my mother's home, he cant sleep thr cause mother will scold him. we have a sofa for dogs but they rather sit the human's sofa. hahah. winner's still sleeping shan't wake him up. have swimming later. ad tmr class =l so tired. decided not to go work shadowing le. wanted to go hospitality but mother say go human resource. T.T wads wrog wif her. always going against me. dun like her! cant wait to grow up =) total freedom. heheh. nvm for now i'll tolerate her nonsense. she foc. full of crap..
shall study now. want to do well =))

2009-09-23T18:40:00.002+08:00

visit blog but very lazy to blog so shall blog tmr or smth. heh. have tutorials tmr and fri. tmr going tuition aft tutorial.

addition post

2009-09-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

this post is for alison hoon sok ming =D
see im posting smth for u since you say my blog got nothing to say de. YOU BIG MEANIE! DUN WAN TAKE BUS WIF ME ON THURSDAY! but i just rmb i got tutorial =X so will go tuition at 4plus. talk to u again soon. i miss the times when we talk to each other EVERYDAY! hah. love you(as a close fren) ^^
AND START STUDYING!! i very pro de ask ppl study i nvr study. =l heh. study hor! if not i'll smack your head. XD kidding! =)

=l

2009-09-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

didnt blog for days le. cause didnt use com. today's alright. got suan by jiayi. ._. i'll suan you back next time. hehe. today sch gave us a talk abt work shadowing. smth liddat. its when you work and stuff. heh. i want to try!! i wan go hospitality. =D peanut butter and jam gave me muffins today. awesome-ly nice. ^^ praise you. i have to do hw!! got a lot haven do yet so cannot be on com for very long. wrote a 3pages long letter heh. i still owe 3 peeps letter =X wanted to upload photos for joshua but cannot! TSK. not fair luhhh. have amaths linear law test tmr. i dun like. >.< tuition on thursday. exam's comin. must study hard. had tutorial today. only 2 ppl went. did summary. but couldnt finish so have to do as homework. tcher is so kind. i lost my paper and she gave me hers. ^^ she scare me today.. talking abt exams and o level =X SCARED AHH. i must start studying le. i just realised something. i have wedding dinner on 16 of oct AND I HAVE A PAPER ON THAT DAY!! =((((( that means i cant go early to her hse and have fun le. =( must make the guys do stuff. heheh. drink mixtures or smth. hah. but i cant go. =( stupid exam. but nvm. exam finish at 9plus so i can go thr. BUT NOBODY WILL DO MY HAIR!!! grr. we shall plan later. im gonna have to buy the dress soon. =) went to my auntie hse on sunday. her hse dam modern but cosy. romantic also. hah. cool cool. i like. XD i gonna have two more cousins. one cousin will be born in early oct i think. and the other next year i guess. so many cousins. i dun mind but dun annoy me can le xD played truth or dare today. but dunno why its truth or truth. so in other words have to tell the truth. hah.
oh yeah during recess today, mandisa went to look for her fren. vanessa ng or smth liddat. she bought potato for her. me and deepika go suan mandisa. heheh. we ask her is it she like her cause that girl and mandisa got no link de. dan we dun dare =X so went to her class and wrote a paper to her. it states "you like mandisa? please reply. go to secondary 3.8 and pass the paper to jesveena" hahah. jesveena not involved but we just put her name. but we not so bad. we went back to class and told her if a girl pass her a paper, pass to me can le. and she came our class to give the reply. the answer is NO! hah. so big somemore. -.- quite funny. heh.
tmr's wednesday.. school start late. if i see jiayi, i'll go question her. hehe.
need to do work le. hopefully tmr i can stay back and study with jesveena tmr.

its friday!

2009-09-18T17:50:00.000+08:00

its friday today. people are all going out. have swimming later at 7. had tutorial today.. chemistry. whole class must go.. its kinda like extra lessons. hahs. exam is coming very very soon. i shall be a good girl and study hard. dont want to retain or drop. i must study. =) but the thing is that everytime i say i want to study, i wont. take out book dan dun wan study le. hah. its so stressful now. dont like it. depress uh. during school today, we had pe. hah. kinda fun. we played rugby and captain's ball. played with a rugby ball though. we played under the morning sun. so hot and glaring. hahah. i was perspiring, i dont perspire a lot but yeah. my face's so pink!! everytime also liddat de. pink face =X i have a lot of hw too.
1) biology project
2) biology wb page 62-64 and 67-69
3) social studies ws. 2 SBQ questions
4) chemistry wb page 62-65
and i cant rmb the rest. heh. stm..

the school installed wii and during recess we see maybelline and alicia play. so retarded!! they play wii sports. dan they play the boxing one. the can play until real life also fighting. pushing around. hahah. dam funny. band's suspended until after exam.. had band ytd. went late cause got tutorials dan after went to find tcher. after band was walk for rice. every 200m we walk, one bowl of rice will be given to the charity. xD i think we walked 8 X 400m not sure. it was fun. suppose to walk but we ran. WE EVEN PLAYED CATCHING!!! heheh.

study hard and study smart for EOY!
smiles. =D

=D

2009-09-16T18:06:00.002+08:00

school started late today. so went to look for claudia with mandisa. didnt dare to go look for her alone. cause go alone look like so toot. hahs. was suppose to talk to euphe this morning before she go for her meeting but she overslept. talked to a number of people today. thought about something.. sigh. wad should i do! aiyo. depress ah.
had a graded assignment for english today. dan after tuition. dunno why halfway through geog, i wasnt feeling well. dam sudden. but now okay le. have to do 7 caj and social studies graded assignment today. -.- so many. eeks i got no mood to do seh. its killing me. suddenly i became so naughty and not do my work! in the past i always do my work but dunno why now never. heh. have band tmr and walk for rice. i guess its gonna be quite tiring. i want to do my part for charity so i gonna walk fast! xD at the same time exercise! heh.
its raining kinda heavily now and im hungry =X i want total freedom. than i can do what i want! XD

=0

2009-09-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

hahs. didnt blog for many days le. didnt have time. heh. just came back from tuition not long ago.
i have to apologise to you peanut butter and jam. sorry for not talking to you yesterday. something came to my mind and also thought you didnt want to talk to me. yeah i said i want you to hate me, but it hurts. alot. not easy for me to say that. hahs. but you didnt want to hate me. hahs love me right xD
i want you to be happy girl. must be happy kay. today's tuesday.. long day for you eh. hahs. i enjoy talking to you =) hahs.

i have to do alot of work today. didnt do during the holidays. =X was having band the whole time. the performance's kinda disappointing.. yeah but no use talking abt it cause its over. hopefully we have a concert next year! ^^ 16more days to exam!! so fast! stress uh. hahs but its kinda okay.. i meant the dates of the exams.
my list of exam days.
1st oct: english paper 1 and english paper 2
2nd oct: chinese paper 1 and chinese paper 2
8th oct: social studies
9th oct: geography
12th oct: maths paper 1 and science physics paper 2
13th oct: amaths and biology(SPA) paper 1 and 2
14th oct: maths paper 2
15th oct: science chemistry paper 3
16th oct: science (physics/chemistry) mcq

chidren's day got exam -.- hahs not considered a children le but still..

was very quiet during tuition today. didnt want to talk to tutor. CAUSE HE'S A MEANIE! i did everything he say. but at the end of it got talk a little bit. i did sec4 work today. surprisingly i can do =D he say im smart but lazy. didnt want to admit cause im lazy and not smart. i must really study very hard for EOY le. dont want to retain or drop down! i must improve my english. cause its kinda very kns now. not powerful but powderful. cant understand chim words. (chim-anology) hahs. writing letter today xD my letters are cool cool. hehe. oh yeah! i lost my orange pen... =( cant remember whr did i put it. stm.. tmr wednesday.. have free morning and have to hand in 7 CAJs! which i haven done it yet! not a single one. have two projects to do. hate projects. so time consuming.
i have tuition tmr too. hahs. go tuition=torture! not really luhh but he will torture ppl. secondary 3 still alright he nvr torture so much but sec 4 le he will torture ah! i see the girl i pity her. his phrase " one to the end" one to the end meaning you have to do all the exercises! cannot skip!! i do the first few dan i lazy dan i told him the answers straight without writing. heh. hope jesveena will upload the photos soon. she's taking forever!
sherie's a pervert yeah. real pervert. scared of her le. gosh.
i shall do my work now. =l have a lot. heh. but write letter first.

tmr's performance day!

2009-09-11T18:56:00.000+08:00

back from band le.. tired very tired.. hahs.
had excursion today also. excursion to the science centre was dam fun. hahs i meant only the after part is fun.
had a lab session at the science centre today. suppose to be perfume making but in the end became crime scene. hahs. kinda boring and fun. weird eh. hahs. but after the lab thing we had our free time. the free time so fun luhh. we went around playing. hehe. taking pictures too. alot of unglam. -.- hahs dan after excursion we were so tired le. the bus kinda quiet.. so sleep lor. XD dan after we reach back to school, me and jesveena went to bedok inter. meet joshua there. he gave me a cute little frog! dam cute. hehe. he gave me that as a goodluck thing for tmr's performance. dan after we went to walk around bedok inter.. dan its about time we go back to sch. IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY!! hahs. saw seah sing yuen so she share umbrella with me. but she kinda a little... you know.. so i got wet anyway. but still many thanks to her if not i will be entirely drenched and i will fall sick again. band today was okay.. played really hard cause tmr's the performance so must give my really best. and i hope that i'll play well tmr =X my mouthed ached.. so suan! suan until cannot close properly whem playing it. and my poor finger. hahs. must get alot of rest today! gonna have swimming soon. im gonna be late le. as usual.. hahs. im always late. anyway today's not a bad day. =)
*wont be wearing the band-u anymore. will be sch-u instead*

i want to thank you for your belated present. ^^ its my first topshop thing. its expensive though. i didnt want to accept it at first cause its dam shocking and ex but yeah.. THANK YOU MANY MANY. =]

thank you very much for the frog. ^^ my goodluck thing eh. hahs. i will carry it wif me. =)

dear God, please give all the people performing tmr the confidence to play well and to calm them down when they're afraid. be with them thoughout the performance and competition and help them to give their very best.

DRESSES ! =)

2009-09-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

hahs i shall put up the photos of the dresses and let you admire it XD

this is my first.. 138 dollars =X but nice =)

hahs i kinda like this ^^ pink.. 138dollars

hahs dont really like this one. godsis choose de so just try. but after wearing.. everybody reject.

PINK =) darker shade of pink. quite simple and soft. 90 dollars.

hahs. ^^ took many photos. yesterday i actually posted an entry but internet got problem so yeah..
i cant rmb wad i typed! shoots..
oh maybe i can.
yesterday was 09/09/09 an enjoyable day for all. especially peanut butter and jam eh. went out wif gay.. and stuff. hahs. i believe you've enjoyed going out with her. and i cant remember the rest.. but i think i had a relatively good day too. went tuition and shopping at night.
everything i choose is expensive.. =( sigh. maybe its cause expensive = nice workmanship. i dont know. =X
have school later at 2pm. band.. hahs performance is in two more days! gosh. thats very fast. =XX hahs.
gonna talk to alison today. she complained that i never talk to her for dam long le. peanut butter and jam.. i also never talk to you for dam long le know.. =( and i can see that we're drifting apart. but i guess its a good thing. cause you are talking to her and yeah.. you know the rest. jiayous girl. i miss you like crazy know. urgh. T.T
september 11 is round the corner.. its tmr. many people died on this day. poor thing.=(
hahs i should stop here now. if i remember anything i'll blog it xP

im really tired of it. =l

2009-09-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

had tuition today at 10am. i was late! overslept. heh. couldn't fall aslp last night. but lucky i reach in time. hehe. wet for tuition and had a torture session! i did trigonometric thing today. dan did a little bit of simple identities. so confusing. hahs, he went through rule one with me. and i catch nothing. i was suppose to understand it but... heh cant. he thought me a little bit of simple identies cause he say he want to torture me! so mean! >=( hahs. dan when he started saying rule number two. i pack up. hahs. but that time was the time i can leave. =) dan after i left his house and went to school. walked a long way to take bus 17. waited so long.. dan i met jesveena in sch. suppose to do project. i mean discuss and stuff. but when we met, we didnt feel like doing. hehe. wanted to go tm and planned to. BUT petrina called and smsed! saying that we are suppose to get all our instruments, stands and files before 1pm! so sudden. but lucky we are in sch at that time. hahs. so we went to do it. hahs. climbed up all the way to 4th floor. and started carrying the things out.
ITS FREAKING HEAVY!!!!!!! heavy cause of the box of files. and i carried it... can die uh. but lucky ppl help us to carry down to the 3rd floor. =) alison was sick. her voice changed. hahs. the clarinet section is big. a lot of ppl. so alot of ppl = alot of things. i had heat rash. -.-
dan after we went to eat lunch. went to macs at bedok inter. =) dan after went back to sch. but when we were at macs, got this guy that look dam weird. the scary thing is that he keep staring here!! omg. dan i told them that got this guy staring. dan all of them come against me!! i was like who is the guy looking at!! dan everybody point me! #$!%$^$&^# eeyer!!! all come tease me! tskk! but the guy is seriously VERY weird. he just bought a drink and look at us. and when we look at him he look away. LOL. dan he change his seat. and he still stare. omg. so weird. dan after he walked away. we thought he went away le BUT he was sitting outside macs. not in the aircon. and directly beside us. -.- omg can. hahs.
dan after we went back to sch. we were late but yeah. not that late. we thought we are having sectionals BUT its combined! hahs. played a few pieces today. i sight read the piece. didnt play before. but it sounds really nice! =) hahs. the worst part of band is carrying the things back to the band room & got sudden spot check. =X i got caught. long fingernails. heh. cannot see socks and never wear nametag. i seriously forgot about putting my nametag on. dan after band, we have to carry everything from the primary sch hall back to the band room at 4th floor. so many things luh. i carried the big plastic box full of files with shenna. she help me. cause cannot alone carry. dam heavy. AND I CUT MY FINGER!!! carrying it back all the way to our sch is like can die. i was so pissed that some ppl didnt help! i kinda like scolded them. =X she is gonna hate me man. but that junior really very attitude. dont like. we are like suffering and she just stand there and talk to her fren. WTH luh. GRR!!! roar! carried the box all the way up to the 4th floor. paris and weiyu saw us when we were at the 2nd floor and ran down to help. so sweet. =) thanks a lot. =) made our job easier. ^^
dan after went home with 3 other ppl. walked to 85market to take bus. hahs. before i went home, i went to guardian to buy stockings. need it for the performance. im looking forward to it! ^^ first official performance. hahs. but we'll be wearing the full band-u. it will be dam hot. hahs. but i want to wear it. =) i think i will look hideous in it.

im tired of it. i really am. i feel mean to lie to you but i have to. you have to talk to her. i know you want to talk to her. i feel like an ass luh. i dont know luh. im going against my wishes but still.. nvm.

hahs. dont sad that i nvr blog abt you luh. aiyo. now im blogging abt you. thanks for being so caring kay. appreciate it. but still.. cannot be so caring! =l

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENA! ^^

saw a sweet thing today. a guy gave a girl a bear! hahs.
im tired and i think i should stop here. its a long entry =X

=D

2009-09-07T08:14:00.000+08:00

hahs. didnt blog for two days! went for a chalet on saturday. stayed over and returned home on sunday night! the worst thing of all MY PHONE NO BATTERY! T.T for one whole day without a phone is like.......... i dont know how to say. kinda weird. hahs. had bbq on saturday. mostly adults with liqour and cigerattes. fooooooo. brought sister and frens to ehub. walked around and went aracde with them. kind of fun but VERY NOISY! too noisy le! ohh dan my godbrother's girlfren came to join us. and we took neoprints. hahs. i will try to upload soon. kinda had fun with them. i was mostly stoning and stuff. hahs. had a tiring tiring day! suppose to sleep early but didnt. so dozed off at 3!i woke up at 9am in the morning. 6hours of torture! is dam dam cold. i was practically freezing. i was wearing shorts. urgh. the blanket not even blanket luhh. got holes de!! hahs. nvm dan yesterday. we went escape. SCARY luh. i didnt sit viking. i will get heart attack and die luhh. so high!! it will kill me man. hahs. im scared of heights. =X we didnt spend a lot of time in thr. was raining for a while though. after escape was swimming. me and my godbrother's gf went swimming. GOT PERVERTS! lols. i was like laughing at her. hahs. she's very funny. she come to me and say, 'eh look thr look thr, got two guys staring here. they are perverts yeah.' and i starting laughing. hahs. it was not the words but how she say it. she's a pretty babe. stopped swimming at about 7 dan went back to bathe and went to ehub for dinner and finally im home.
i charged my phone and when i on it. 9 msges. omg. hahs.
stop here now its 8.14 and im late for sch!

tired!!!

2009-09-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

omg. im dam tired. so tiring today. didnt had a good day yesterday. i dont like what im feeling..
had pe today.. played volleyball and captain's ball. volleyball is kinda fun. hahs. BUT we were like under the hot sun!! we played at the tennis court. recieved back progress card today! after pe. woah. kinda scary can. but i didnt do really that badly. but the tcher's remarks abit wrong. she said 'sherilyn is a warm and amicable pupil who adopts a positive attitude towards her learning.' its like not true. i dont have a postive attitude towards learning. hahs. peanut butter and jam asked me some questions today. i gave her the truthful answer. truthful answer hurts! =( i dun like whats happening. because of 'her' many things have happened. im like being very selfish if i go according to my heart and tell her not to talk to 'her'. i really hate it. sigh. i cant be selfish. i cannot be that way! but it hurts. =( it really hurts alot. i really feel like crying. =( you wont know how hurtful it is. but i dont want to tell you cause i dont want you to feel the pain too. one person to suffer is better than two. furthermore, i dont want you to feel hurt at all. im really confuse. i will cry when i think of this. i feel like piercing a knife through me. i feel like dying. i dun wanna face this. i dont know if this is a challenge from God. but if it is. its a diffcult one. a very diffcult one.
hahs. dear God, why have you given me such a tough challenge! but i'll show you that i can handle it. i will handle it. i will. im not gonna collapse so easily. hahs. i've straighten out my thoughts. but im afraid it will come back!
peanut butter and jam. i dont know if you will read this but i want you to be strong and face it. dont want you to be hurt. promise me.

alison. remember that you are a good leader. God will bless you. =)

i have swimming today. tired + tired = dead me.

=(

2009-09-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

tired. just came back from band. had a long day at school today. got back my social studies paper. I PASSED! omg surprising can. but just pass only. 7/13. i think i will get back my report card tmr.. =(
couldnt concentrate in class today. read letters in class. got really pissed. people got stuff thats not true!!
i feel damn ass. im so angry. i thought i could have trusted you. you even got the wrong infomation. -.-'
i duno luh. sigh. hoho. was caught for using phone in class. =X but nothing happen, hah. i got 2 chocolates from my physics tcher today. his last day teaching us before coming back as a permanent tcher next year. he's a nice tcher. he doesn't scold people. i think he know that i use phone in class but he nvr say anything.
im dead.. nvr pay attetion in class and i've got no idea wad the tcher is talking abt. end of year is like coming and im not prepared. if i fail i have to drop or retain. =(
had band todayy. didnt really do anything! omg. and suddenly we know that we have a upcoming performance next saturday!!! so sudden luh. gosh. but i dun think we are wearing the band uniform. hahs
i feel like an asshole. omg. i feel so bad. =l because during the september hol's, WE NEED TO GO BACK TO SCH!! MODAY TO FRIDAY! OMG! its seriously not a holiday at all!!! have 4days of band due to the upcoming performance. if its confirm, it will be my first official performance. i want people to go. isnt cool to have frens there seeing you. hahs.
tried punching the wall today. DAM BLOODY PAINFUL. i was not that angry though.
jesveena taken a picture of me -.-

ho. random picture by her. i was wearing shorts. -.-

ANGRYY!!!!

2009-09-02T18:01:00.000+08:00

today is wednesday. school started late today. in the morning went to look for peanut butter and jam. was walking to class dan saw her. hah. she didnt want to see me cause of her new hair cut. =( but still i see le. it looks much neater. more girly i guess. hah. but not much of a difference. i cut my hair too but when you look at it, thr's no difference. but when you let it down, its nice! =) i like. he help me shape my hair. awesome person. i gave a present to peanut butter and jam. i hope she liked it =X i wraped it myself! wanted to use hot pink paper but didnt. used shiny golden paper instead. =)

=)) euphemia, huiwen, mandisa, keryl and serene accompanied me today. we actually wanted to go my hse thr but in the end went to bedok inter. ate macs for lunch. waited for mandisa and euphe while eating. euphe went home to get her wallet. dan after we went to the bus stop to wait for bus 31. they were late because of me! =( i feel so bad luh. hahs. i was going to tuition...

talking abt tuition make me angry because i went to tuition and my tutor is not at home! waited for so long luh!! GRR. he told me that i come today de! but he say he told me tuesday!! im sure he told me today. very sure. than after got no tuition i went home. so waste my time leh he. grr. hah. i went to pet lovers at east point. THE DOGS ARE SO FREAKING CUTE!!! =))) i saw 3 chiwawas too. they are like dam bloody small. hahs. lovable pets. =)

got to go need to do mindmap for alison. hah. alison better thank me for it!

WENT SHOPPING TODAY!!

2009-09-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

hahaah. im backed from my shopping.
i went to kallang leisure park today for lunch. =) had sushi buffet.
mother said she want to try that place cause we usually eat at SUSHI TEI.
i cant stand buffets! i cant eat much. hah. today i eat dam a lot!!! eat until i want to puke. :X
haha. went to arcade also. played basketball.. i scored 200plus XD hand dam aching luh.
when i play with my sis we score 400plus xD we can team together.hah. dan after went to orchard. we to ion. hah. that place is like full of branded goods -.- only the basement got a lot of people. 2nd floor onwards got nobody one! haha. my sister got a converse pencil case -.- IM IN NEED OF A SCHOOL BAG!!! saded.
I'VE GOTTON A NEW HAIRCUT!! spent 30plus at jean yip at ion.
the hairstylist dam bloody pro luh. cut my hair like no difference in length but the floor got dam a lot of my hair. haha. but he shape my hair and stuff. now i feel prettier :X haahha. its like nice. =) peanut butter and jam also cut her hair but didnt let me see her on monday.. =(
i've spent a lot of money today!!! bought presents. hah. 40plus. =( broke le luhh. i so nice right. buy people present and dun buy myself a school bag.. i've got to do homework and write letters today!! so many things to do!! uhhhh. tmr i have tuition too.

this note is specially for ALISON HOON SOK MING!
ALISON! =) haha. tell me dun write anything abt you so I WRITE! xD write big big somemore. heheh. dont kill me ah. YOU SO IMPATIENT! cannot wait one! tsk. anyway there's something i wanna tell you.
i want to tell you that you should never give up in whatever you do. have some faith in yourself. you are a good leader. im always here for you kay. you're my good good good fren xD i'll be your listening ear and be your punching bag. just know that im here for you. HAH. continue to tag me =)
*YOU AHH KEEP RUSHING ME TO WRITE THIS BLOG ENTRY FASTER! TSKK*

today's a holiday! ^^

2009-09-01T12:05:00.000+08:00

its a holiday today! ^^
its a good and bad thing. good cause i can stay home and sleep late. bad cause i cant see my frens. hahs. i just remembered i got homework to do! :X i have do yet.. =XX i have to reply letters today too. i keep delaying my frens letters =X they are gonna get angry le. heheh

oh yeah watched a movie last night. at 9.25pm. watched wif my family and uncle's family. total got 10 ppl! so many right. lols. we watched where got ghost. its dam bloody funny luh. scary too. hahs. i scream can... kena shock. hahs. dan got this aunty wif kids beside me stare at me!! hah. her kids also scared -.- was msging and watching at the same time. liddat dan i wont be that scared. haha. but the show is just super funny. very very funny. haha. the ghost anyhow pop put one! can die of shock luhh. hahs. was wearing a sky blue tshirt wif shorts! i like the shirt! =) okay... its like 11.54am and im hungry! slept at 1plus yesterday and woke at 10 plus. =)) early early..
haha. went to a workshop on saturday 29august. frens tagged photos. =) but i had to leave early for tuition at 4. so dun have that many photos. it was a fun day with the clarinet section! =)
the instructor is really a pro. hahs.
oh yeah! on 29august, lorna whiston asked to meet all parents for parents teacher conference. and the teacher got nothing to say about me! =)) cool right. lols. he said that im very quite during class. only when he ask questions dan i will talk. but not really true. i very talkative de only never really talk during his class time. oh yeahh. got a guy fren, he brought a book titled 'HOW ANIMALS DO IT' you know wad i mean by 'do it'. haha. the book is dam bloody gross.
its like rated -.- but kinda cool. i want to know where to buy it from. but pity he doesnt know whr cause it was a present from his fren. he even called the fren to ask where he bought it from. heh. nice guy. but i nvr talk to him one too bad.
just went on facebook just now. i've got nothing to do on com!!

=)))

2009-08-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

didnt had a good day today but did cip today!
went around people's house knocking on the door asking for newspaper and old clothes.
hahah. we collected a lot luh. is really alot alot. hah. wonder wad the school is gonna do with it.
i cant stand my family.. dont like them.. so annoying and stuff. i dun even want to call them my family luh.
sooner or later i wont be able to take it and i'll seriously leave the house.
was dam pissed and angry today. hahs. but peanut butter and jam cheered me up =)
she was like saying that if i leave my house dan go her hse. so sweet right. lols. anyway.. she's DAM FREAKING FUNNY YESTERDAY!! hahaha. i was laughing like a mad ass can. she told me about cockroach... XD funny funny. couldn't stop laughing.. she just hate insects.. or should i say she's just scared of them. hahah. she went hyper while telling me abt the story ytd night. but still very funny. i laugh at her reactions... see insect crawling on the person dan speechless. want to tell the person but no words come out of her mouth. hahahahha.
today's tchers day.. had a short programme for the tchers. they had their breakfast in the hall today. seeing them eat makes me HUNGRY!! they so waste food luh. never finish their food. TSK. hahaha. had dedication msges to tchers on the screen today.. gay's name always appear there cuz nobody wrote for the tcher dan cuz she student leader dan she have to write. hahs.
i think im gonna watch a movie today. hopefully... stupid mother. everytime say want to see dan go until thr say dun wan see.. piss me off can! everytime liddat one! hahs. i want to go bugis badly.. need to have save money firsrt. how nice if i can go shopping and someone pay for everything. hehe.

2009-08-30T19:56:00.000+08:00

=) decided to blog after all.
had a good day. slept till 12plus. :X nothing bad happened. hahas :)
how i hope everyday would be like this or even better!
got back my common test papers last few days. one more to go!
didnt really do that badly. but I CAN ACTUALLY PASS MY PHYSICS! =(
failed by 2 marks! must do better for end of year...
a quote that i like " there are many things in life that catches your eye but only a few catches your heart. persue those."
i want to look up at life in another way. i will try to think positively cause every struggle im facing is from God. he wants to challenge me and see if i can handle the challenges he gives me.
im glad that i know that you are always by my side. =)

had a cool day today! =) me and grizel were talking abt our old frens and stuff. trying to find people from our school! =) kind of cool. me and grizel met through audi. is like so co-incidental. heheh. hipe can find all our long lost friends. =))

had a workshop yesterday! so cool luhh. hahah but had to leave early cause got tuition.
i missed the performance. ACSI is really dam dam dam, dam bloody big!!!! omg.
rich sch sia.. hahas.